So I Had A Moment

So, yes I had a moment! A full dragged out, "Jesus, why am I still single?" sobbing moment in my car. I sat there hoping the individual in the car next to me wasn't looking in my direction because boy it wasn't a pretty picture. Ugly face and wet checks on full blast.

Somewhere between writing my first book, teaching sixth graders, serving faithfully at my church and being a woman I just completely lost it. I wanted to know why was a young, eligible girl like me still not married and who better to ask than Jesus himself. I had a career, I graduated from college, I served in ministry and for the most part...I'm a really nice girl. So, okay Jesus, what's the problem? Like, Jesus do you love me, I'm over here by my WHOLE self. My heart was a little overwhelmed, several explanations ran through my mind. Maybe I don't have enough money saved, maybe I'm too shallow, maybe

I'm too big....I was super critical of myself. I sat and thought but God you know. Until he completes everything about who I am and where I'm going in this single season, I'm single until he says different.

I took a deep breathe. Smiled. And thought...is it too late to be a nun? Okay...back Sharnissa stay focus AND said within myself, until then keep working! But, husband where art thou?! Lol